A Bomb

Is with heavy heart that I am writing this entry.

My dad’s heart condition has taken for a worse. The valves around his heart are not functioning well which explains the series of chest pain he had been experiencing so frequently for the past 1 yr or so.

The only solution is to go for an operation. As Dad has kidney failure, operation would carry a higher risk than any other normal patient.
Without the operation, he would have to suffer frequent heart attack or stroke.
He has been in and out of NUH due to chest pain, stayed in Coronary Care Unit for so many times, so why wasn't there any sign to show the malfunction valve?
Why we know of this only when it reached the SEVERE stage (they comes in mild, moderate & server)? UNBELIEVABLE!!
But what's the point of asking why when it has already happened, they can't do anything to reverse the situation, can they?

This piece of news is a bomb for me. A 'un-timed' bomb. We don't know when will it explode and what will happen if it really does.

Dad met his first crisis when he was told that his kidney had totally failed and he needs to go on dialysis. He was devastated , I was with him. He was crying so helplessly.

His 2nd crisis was his heart bypass. Everyone in the family especially my mum was very worried, we prayed hard he could survive the ordeal. We stayed in the hospital all the while when the operation was going on. When out of the theater, my dad looked as if he just finished a war. Totally exhausted and tired!

Now we have the 3rd crisis, will we survive this again? I wonder...
Dad morale is low and he looked down, aged & in despair.


Daddy, be strong, we will be with you to overcome this just like the way we did previously. I prayed for your health and may you live as long as you can, Lucas would want to show you his 1st report card with flying colours.
As Jenson said, you as a Liverpool fan is a fighter! One who never give up easily!!

Love you Daddy!!!